I probably should have posted this a while back, but I am busy with the 2nd phase of my personal reality TV show “Body Transformation -The Self-Induced Trials of a Moron”…
I hit my target a while back. I dipped below 92KG (a little under 14.5 stone or 200 ish pounds) which was my final target. That brought my total weight loss to 36KG (over 5st 9lbs or 80 pounds) in 6 months.
Not bad for a lazy fat bastard I suppose.
My current plan involves killing myself on a rowing machine in an effort to increase my upper body strength to the point where I can really hurt myself with a workout that I have been set. A workout that I simply cannot do at the moment. It is a real goal for me as it has been set by the same guy that gave me the weight loss program. Based on results, I don’t think I could place enough trust in what he tells me…so I am really going for it.
Why am I going for it? Well, I want to tone. I want what I (now) have to look as good as possible. I originally thought I was going to just move into a “maintenance mode” where I would make sure to keep what I have achieved, but I realised that I could go for something more. Something that will make me feel good. So, that is what I am doing…although being able to achieve a 4 minute “full plank” seems a bridge too far…but, like I say, I trust him.
Here is the thing though. When you do something like this and lose a shiteload of weight, you inevitably get compliments and praise from people. Which is great and in a lot of cases acts as motivation to keep going. It did for me…not only was I seeing results, other people were noticing too and that just makes you want to go on and on. Add to that my decision to make public what I was doing and, for me at least, I had to perfect level of motivation and accountability to not give up or stop.
That said, when you achieve your goal…something that only months before you couldn’t have imagined ever being able to do, you start to reflect on it.
My reflection turned pride into annoyance. I had been moaning and complaining about my own weight, without doing anything, for years. The minute I decide to actually do it, I lose the weight easily. Well, easily to me. I have told people how I did it and it doesn’t seem that easy to them, but to me it was. Too easy I suppose, which makes it all the more annoying as I could have done this years and years ago. I always thought that I was genetically predisposed to be as big as I was. The few half-hearted diet attempts I made in years gone by did nothing for me and so I assumed it couldn’t be done and that was just who I was.
Now, based on the relative ease in which I managed it, I am thinking that I am probably predisposed to be a thinner guy and I had just let myself go.
Don’t get me wrong, I am not trying to make myself miserable…far from it. I am proud of finally getting off my arse and fixing it. I am very happy to see women checking me out from time to time and that interest level being increased. The positives are there….and that’s where the annoyance comes from….I could have had this a long time ago.
So why didn’t I? Laziness…complacency? Both at a guess..but I do know this, it has definitely changed me as a person. I am more willing to go out, even if it is just for a short time. Even little things like getting home, getting undressed and then realising I forgot something at the shop…something that I would have previously lived without for 24 hours..I now get dressed again and head out. Somebody calls me on short notice for something, I make an effort to respond and do it. It’s great. I am the type of person I want to be now. For the most part.
Now, obviously, I could have been doing all those things while I was fat…of course I could. Being thin hasn’t magically made me a different person. It has, however, made me (forgive the cheese) a bit more willing to get out there and grab stuff. Be with friends, help people…pickup some damn milk…whatever it is.
It has affected my gaming though, I have barely gamed in the last couple of weeks. Although last week I didn’t stream due to party based commitments…I will be back to streaming at least once a week, starting this weekend. Still, not gaming because I am too busy and am out and about is a lot better than not gaming because I am too lazy to game, or worse, gaming constantly because I am too lazy to go out.
This will, most likely, be my last weight/fitness related post. Using a public forum like this (and Facebook) gave me the right amount of motivation, accountability and feedback that a fragile psyche like mine needed to keep going and, like the title says “Mission Accomplished”. I just need to find some other stuff to write about again now
In the meantime, catch up with me on Twitter, Facebook and Saturday nights on Twitch (I hope you like Iron Maiden). Who knows, I may even get around to actually posting a YouTube video at some point in the future.
Oh, and for the interested amongst you, yes…the picture is really me (6 months apart).